I think my cousins VCR is dead or maybe in a coma. I can't turn it on and I think it's still plugged in. Hmmm... maybe it has a screw loose or a wire loose. I think that if it were dead, I would smell decaying VCR parts, right? I don't know. I should check it out, but, I don't have time right now. Hey, don't tell me that I'm uncaring. I am, it's just that maybe I don't want to face the fact that it may be dead. It would be too hard. sniff sniff...
Moving on, lol. Today was pretty uneventful. I am however, proud that I only smoked two cig's today, one before work and one after. Oh yes, I did buy myself a "treat" today. Tee Hee Hee!! I bought myself a pair black sheer panties with a lace trim and a black bra also with a lace trim to match. I now have my first matching bra and panty. Isn't that exciting?!
I love wearing sexy lingerie under my everyday clothes. It makes me feel SEXY! GRRRRR! I'm actually wearing them right now. I'm sitting at the computer, home alone, with just panties and a bra on! I had to try them on. Very, very sexy. I kind of want to have my picture taken with them on with my hair curled with dark sexy makeup. Hmmm... my uncle does have a digital camera...tee hee hee... maybe I'll do it with a couple of courage shots o'rum. Wait a damn minute! I have no more rum! Oh well, maybe vodka. Wait a second! I left my vodka at Ron's. Oh well, maybe tequila. NO FUCKING WAY! Just smelling it will make me puke. Bad memories. Ugh. Hmmm... Note to self: must buy more rum. Rum is good. I love rum. :)
Anyway. Kelly replied to the email I sent her. This is what it said:
whatever you need to do I'll pick up my stuff this weekend.
This is what I wrote back a few minutes ago:
Okay. Let me know when you'll come by. I'll make sure that the tea never leaves the pitcher! I'll hook you up with a passion tea lemonade. See you this weekend.
Shelia
And, she just replied with this:
What times do you work this weekend? I will come by probably near the end of your shift. Let me know
See ya then
I miss you
Kelly
Dammit. Now I feel even worse. She said she misses me. I don't think she's fucking with my head. I miss her too! Dammit. I wish none of this shit ever happened with Ben. I hate losing a friend. I had soo much fun hanging out with her. FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! This really sucks. I just have to stick to my AK-47's or .45's. (grin)
I'll have to reply to her tomorrow. I just don't know what to say. Yeah, I already know I should tell her my schedule, dumbass, but about the I miss you part. (sigh)
Many people know this already, but I'll go ahead and clue you in if you don't. I make things complicated. I worry about everything and I always over analyze stuff. I don't know why I do these things. I think I must be wired wrong. heh.
Well, I'm gonna go and parade around my room in my sexy new lingerie. I'll probably make sexy faces, too. lol.
Random thought...I wonder if anyone has ever tried watching themselves in the mirror while taking a shower. It's.... interesting. I think that whoever reads this should try it. Throw caution to the wind and let the damn water drip onto the floor! Check your sexy selves out while taking a shower!
G'nite! Sweet Dreams!
10:09 p.m. - 2003-10-16
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