This is going to be a long fucking entry. Be prepared because I have this tendency of retelling every single fucking detail. heh.
Friday night, my friend Ron threw one of the most fun parties I've ever been to and hey, the party was for me. Yes, it was a going away party. Well, I arrived late because I had dinner with Erica and Randall. I'm going to miss Randall, he's hilarious and always entertaining.
I pick up Ashley and we head out to the party. We get there after 9pm and everyone is there! I was so happy that everyone showed up, well Michael who works dairy wasn't there, but that's okay. Jesse was there and I wasn't upset at that. I gave him an anime porno called Midnight Panther, which he liked. Who doesn't like pr0n? Anywho, he and Spencer ended up leaving early on the basis that Spencer had to study for a final, blah blah blah. I'm just glad they showed up even though it was only for a half hour.
Let's see, I got my pic taken w/everyone and took the film to Targay to get it developed. So, I'll be posting those pics w/in the next couple of days. I immediately started to play this drinking game, that gets you too fucking wasted too fast! I had just had a huge mexican dinner at Mercardo Juarez and I couldn't drink too much right away or I'd have puked just because I was full and not because I was drunk. I pretty much only had two drinks the entire night. I don't need to be wasted to have fun. Plus, I love seeing everyone else act stupid drunk!
Let's see, I flirted with everyone and didn't hold back on any sexual comments I wanted to make. I smoked soo much that night, it wasn't funny. The next day, after brushing my teeth and eating, I still smelled cigarettes. Hehehe. Dustin came to the party a tad late, but still showed up which made me happy. This is a different Dustin, who works the grocery department at Target. He's soo cute, he's the guy that I told on my last day of work that he was soo cute and that we all talked about him. LOL.
He came in the door and I screamed out his name, he gave me a hug and I maneuvered him to the couch and pushed him onto it, straddled his legs still hugging him and told him that I was glad he showed up. I took several pics with him, too! Let's see.... Ron had several beer bongs hanging from his balcony, to which many people did. He took three beers on this one bong and because he had had several drinks just prior and some shots, he totally puked his guts out over the balcony! He wasn't the only one to do that either!
At one point in the party, Ron came out of his room completely naked and yelled that he was going streaking! He ran out the door and as we were laughing our guts out, Josh his roomate, locked the door behind him! It was soo funny! Finally, he was let back into the apartment. I have a pic of that, so you guys will get to see it! lol. He wasn't the only person we got to see naked that night, too.
Carrie was going to take a shower, why I don't know, and ron walked into the bathroom where she was taking her clothes off and forced out into the livingroom wearing only a thong and held her arms up yelling, "look at carrie, she's naked!" She was so drunk, she was just laughing at the situation. Later that night, she also showed me her clit piercing. all I have to say to that is, "ouch!" ouch, ouch, ouch, ouch! but, it looked awesome and sexy.
During the course of the night, she kept telling me that she wanted do something to me. I could only imagine what sexual thing she had in store for me. Well, it turned out that she wanted to kiss me. Greatness and Joy. I suck at kissing. She kissed me and I thought I did bad and she thought I told her she was bad, it was funny. Drunk people can't understand shit. So, to make it up to her I kissed her again. This time, in front of everyone. I was sitting on the couch next to Dustin and she straddled my lap and kissed me. It was good. She told me that I was good.
Christine, Josh's girlfriend then wanted to kiss me too, so I kissed her too. I don't think that's on film because I think I ran out of film at that point. Too bad!! So, the entire night, everyone was drinking, some people got pissed at one point or another but usually got over it. Lot's of people were having a good drunken time. It was great. I was stuck to Dustin's side the entire night. I'm glad he humoured this old woman. heh.
We ended up having to drive a few people home because they were so wasted. The party ended at 4AM and the only people left were myself, my cousin, dustin, ashley (we were her ride) and this guy David from produce. Ron, Carrie, Josh and his girlfriend Christine kicked us out so they could have a foursome! Too bad we couldn't watch! hehehe!
I drove Dustin home because he was drunk, somewhat. It was just an excuse to stay with him longer. I dropped him off and he gave me a great hug. He's a good hugger. There are few of those out there. He hugs like he means it. He completely embraces you and is never the first to pull away. I gave him a kiss on the cheek and he kissed me on the cheek as well. Oh, as we were driving home, he was asking me why I didn't kiss any guys at the party and only girls. I told him that I was too shy and kinda nudged him on the arm with my elbow. hint hint... but oh well.
I got home after 4AM, got to sleep I think at 4:30. Ashley went home with us because she was funny drunk! She kept talking about David and how she'd be dating him if he weren't taken. I told her that when she was sober, she'd realize what she's really saying! You'd have to know him to understand what I'm talking about. Oh, she tells me that her mom, she's 17, want's her home by 9 in the fucking morning! It was fucking 4:30! So, I wake up at 8 and take her ass home. I was soo fucking tired.
I got home and started to hear shit from my aunt. First, she asks me if it's cold outside and I tell her that yes it was cold. She started to bitch by saying, well aren't you sick? why are you wearing just that? I was fucking wearing jeans and a t-shirt. I wasn't in my underwear for fuck sake. (sigh) Then she asks me what plans I had for that day (yesterday) and I told her that I was going to see my Dad in Oklahoma. She then asked me why because he probably didn't want to see me since he hadn't contacted me. I told her that uncle earl didn't want me to tell him where I lived because he didn't want him to contact him.
She was telling me all kinds of stuff like, what if he's married and has kids. What are they going to say when they see you? I told her that I didn't care what they thought. She's like, why do you want to see him anyway? I told her that, even though he's not perfect, I'm not going to be in this area for awhile and this may be the last time I'll see him. He's still my dad. She just gave me a look and I've never disrespected her before, but I just turned around and went to my room. I didn't want to hear it. It made me more nervous about seeing him.
Yesterday, erica and myself drove up to Stillwater, OK. I had an old address, no phone number and remembered that he worked at a Wal Mart. We got there, and it had snowed. I wasn't smart and didn't think about weather conditions there. I was wearing my white button up shirt, a skirt and flip flops. Yeah, I was cold! lol. I got mad looks from everyone. This one kid told his dad that that lady is crazy! lol. No one was at the address I had for him, so erica and I made our way to Wal Mart.
I found out that he wasn't in yet and deduced that he probably worked overnight and his shift started at 10pm. Oh, we didn't leave for OK until 4 in the evening. Erica and I went and ate at Eskimo Joes. It was a cool restaurant w/tons of atmosphere. I only had soup and salad because I was nervous. We go back to Walmart at 10pm and I have him paged. No one comes. I turned around and saw him. I just stood there. He walked by and I just stood there. I wanted to go home right then and there. I was scared.
I told erica that he had just walked by and she grabbed my hand and made me tell her which direction he went. We started to go in the direction he went and he was walking back towards us. I looked him in the face and he asked erica and myself, "what can I do for you ladies?" I said, Joe, it's me Shelia. He didn't recognize me at all. I guess I shouldn't have been suprised. It's been over 5 years since I last saw him. He was shocked that I was there. I asked for a hug and he asked me what I was doing there. I told him that I was in Texas visiting Erica and thought I'd stop by and see what he was up to.
He told me that his shift didn't end until 7am and that he could give me his keys to his place and erica and I could stay there for the night. I told him that we were leaving that night because erica had to work today. He then told his boss that he was going to disappear for 30min. So, we all walked to the front of the store and sat on the benches and just tried to catch up as much as we could in 30 min.
I told him that I had just gotten my assoc degree, I wasn't married, no kids, in the process of trying to find a University to attend. That I'm going to be staying with my sister Karen for a couple of months, stuff like that. He gave me his new address and when I asked for his phone number he told me that he didn't like to give that out. Weird, huh? He told me that he'd been clean for 8 years and didn't have a girlfriend or anything like that. He said that he doesn't go to the bars anymore and so he can't meet anyone. I told him that he didn't have to drink or do drugs when he went out to have fun.
He said that that would be too hard for him and that doing that stuff made it easier to meet girls. So, he just doesn't go. He said that there's a cop he knows that helps him stay on the on track. I asked him if he had any brothers or sisters and he doesn't. His half brother is dead as well as his parents. He doesn't like to talk to anyone in the family because he was such a black sheep growing up that he feels that he's an inconvenience to everyone.
He told me that he went to California in Nov and called my old job to see where I was. I told him that I hadn't worked there in 3 years. He always does that. He'll just show up out of the blue. So, I guess what I did wasn't too out of the ordinary for us. He proceeded to tell me something that really stuck out. He said that he didn't have friends, didn't talk to anyone in the family, kept to himself and is an isolationist. That is somewhat familiar to me. Erica even pointed this out to me in the car. She said that we have that in common.
I didn't get to learn much, but seeing him was a good thing. I'm glad I did it. He told me that I was the best christmas present he ever had. 11:30 came around and it was time for him to go back to work. We hugged and that was it. Erica and I left there at midnight and got home a little after 4am. I wish I had my camera with me. I left it in the truck. Oh well, I told him to write to me even though it would be hard for him and to send me some pictures, for which he said he would.
Today, I slept for 12hrs! Hehehe. I needed to recover. I was soo fucking tired driving home that I was acting somewhat crazy! Ben called me drunk as fuck around 3am. It was funny. Too bad I couldn't talk to him more. I pretty much told him to try and organize sneaking out so we could see each other before I left. He said he'd try.
Well, now I have to go. My uncle asked me to sit for 4hrs and record Battlestar Gallactica w/out commercials. Yay.
5:08 p.m. - December 14, 2003
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