I've been getting a few emails here and there from Don. Now, Don has a really cool name. It's Don Davis. Do you want to know why that name is cool?? Well, first of all, we all know that I'm a sci-fi nerd that watches Stargate SG1. Well, General Hammond's real name is Don Davis!! How cool is that!
Oh yeah, the point of this entry. Heh. Well, he's emailed me a few times and I really enjoy his emails. I haven't written about him before because, well I really don't know why. He sent me an email today to cheer me up and it actually has. Maybe the impact of the email he sent me today has led to my writing about him in my diary.
Normally, my nights are spent thinking about all the things going wrong in my life and such stuff. I was just thinking about Ben and wondering how he's doing and who he's doing (jealous?? hmmm...) and then I start thinking about Remy. See, Remy was cool to talk to, sucked in bed, was waaaay too hairy in his naughty bits. Okay, if I'm going to spend time shaving my naughty bits to make it perty, you need to trim the massive hair growing down there too!
Wow, i've really strayed off topic! lol. Speaking of, I really wish I had the funds to go shopping at hot topic or torrid. Heh
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Last week diaryland said your notes were not turned on. Now, they are.
Strange computer shit.
After I sent the e-mail-----I got a warning message from hotmail. It just said warning from hotmail master. And of course not having a real clue who you are, I thought, oh shit, this girl is 8 years old and I'm in trouble for even trying to cheer her up. I sent the hotmail master a bite me message. And, then 3 days later there you are.
SO CHEER UP! I'm not a child molester after all, and your life just needs a bit of patience. I know, easy to say. But, I am convinced that everyone has at least half a million partners that they can put up with for ten or twelve years. And then, there is always that two or three that you dream about about for the rest of your life. You probably haven't met your two or three yet, BUT, you are probably already on several lists-----and, twenty years from now, those guys are screwing somebody and wishing things were different, and still remembering you!
Whoa, too deep for me. But, I know for a fact it's true. Someday, or maybe already, you'll meet someone that is more interested in pleasing you than themselves----that's the one you'll dream about (sexually). Trouble is, that's the one you'll dream about emotionally, too. So, don't forget them. The only other thing people think about is money, security, crap like that. Trust me, that doesn't mean shit in your life.
Am I rambling or what? I just thought a cheerful email would be nice, and look what I did. Cheer up, anyway. You got a lot to look forward to.
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Isn't that somewhat profound? In it's simplicity, his look into my life from the outside, it makes sense. I focus too much on the negative only because it's soo easy to do. Why is that? Why can't I just focus on the good stuff that's happened to me, which are very few and far between, and be happy? I don't know. Oh well.
I still haven't spoken to Joe. He's logged into yahoo messenger right now and hasn't said a single thing to me. It hurts my feelings but I guess that's just the way things go. I have to learn to not be so emotionally involved. Maybe being Data would be a good thing. Whoa, I'm nerdy.
Speaking of Data, this guy Datalife on CS was talking to me a bit and even called my house one evening. Well, I decided to call him this evening as we were playing and he answered. We talked a bit and then he told me that I had to be careful of when I called because he has a jealous girlfriend.
Why is my life so difficult? Okay, in retrospect, it isn't difficult. I mean, I'm not homeless or dying of some incurable disease, but lacking a love life sucks. I want to LOVE, be LOVED and fuck. I especially want to be fingered. I really like that for some reason. Heh... Great. Now I'm horny and all I have is my vibrator. Fun, but not really.
This is a really cool fantasy. I'm at work checking out the hot guys and this one hot guy notices me checking him out. He signals me to follow him to some hidden spot. We don't say a word to each other. He gets down on his knees and starts to eat my pussy. Mmmm. Then he comes up and kisses me and starts to finger me. I can't stay standing w/out his help because my knees have gone weak. Then he turns me around, pushes my panties to the side and starts to fuck me until we both cum. (That was the short version) But, isn't that exciting? We then go back to work. -=sigh=- That's a nice fantasy.
***crosses fingers and hopes fantasy comes true tomorrow at work***
10:23 p.m. - April 04, 2004
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