I'm going to try and give the edited version of the past month or so.
Trouble in our relationship made me seriously think of moving out and leaving shane. He's going through a really tough depression that I can't handle. He's been very moody, over reactive to situations, shutting me out and being a total jerk. I'm trying to be an understanding girlfriend, but he's making that hard. He hasn't worked in a month, so I'm the breadwinner at the moment and I make peanuts.
Things are getting a bit better, he's been in a better mood lately, why you say? I don't know. He still doesn't talk that much to me.
Last night, we had a BBQ for our friend John who is going into the Navy on wednesday. I decided to partake in the festivites and had too much to drink. I passed out on our bed, got up to go to the bathroom around 4AM and someone was in there pooping. I told them to hurry up and I went into the computer room to lay down on the couch because I couldn't stand for too long. I missed the couch and hit my head on the wall and fell on the floor. Passed out.
My friend Oshana was slapping me on the face trying to get me to wake up. I woke up and couldn't stand up. I was so out of it. Finally made it into the bathroom, did my business and fell onto the floor because i still couldn't stand up. lol. I made it back to bed to find shane masturbating and he asked me if I wanted to join in the fun and go from there.
Okay, we haven't had sex in a month and now he's horny? wtf. I'm sick, dizzy and I can't even move without almost puking. bastard. Needless to say, no, we didn't have sex. sigh.
Rise and shine, called my mom wished her a happy mom's day and told her everything. lol. I told carla everything too and she got pissed because everyone let me go back to sleep when i could have had a concussion. yay for great friends!
10:56 a.m. - May 08, 2005
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