Well, today is valentines day. I am alone and bitter about it. I started thinking about this day and I feel like Corporate America has something to do with how I feel regarding this day. Well, partially anyway. This day has been blown way out of proportion. Did it ever really use to be about simple expressions of love?
Why does this day make single people worldwide feel just a tad shittier than they normally do? The reason is simple. Corporate America, seeing an opportunity to make billions of those who are in relationships, fall under the trap off consumerism. You MUST buy jewerly and spend a couple of hundred dollars on your mate. You MUST buy a card expressing your heartfelt emotions for your mate. You MUST buy flowers, also showing your deepfelt love for your mate.
BULLSHIT! Love shouldn't have to be expressed all on one day with material items forced upon you. Okay, I'll admit that when in a relationship, all these things are romantic and a nice gesture, but years and years of conditioning forces people to do this on ONE day. I'd rather have these gestures just because. I like the unexpected. I like the little bits of attention.
I'd rather have LOVE than have any material item telling me about love. I want to experience love and I want to swim in it. I feel that holidays like this are too trivial. The emphasis on love should be on days where you can't stop thinking about them and you go home and give them a single flower and a kiss. Just because.
God, I just got an IM from some guy who wanted to meet with me tonight because he was alone on Valentines day. Ick. I told him to go pick up some girl at a bar. The nerve of this guy. I don't know him and first of all, I wouldn't meet up with a guy who's first sentence is:
M 34 Fresno. Wanna meet?
Fuck that. He can go fuck hiimself for all I care. I'm not interested in a demeaning encounter laden with sex. I hate people like that. I'm sorry. Even at my horniest, I would never do that. Sex is special. It's emotional. You don't just give it up to someone because they ask for it.
Why is everything so complicated? Why are people so superficial? I want the whole package. I want love. I want everything that comes with it.
Fuck Valentines Day!
10:59 p.m. - February 14, 2006
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