Well, all is not well in the life of extremelyshy. Life is hard, decision making is hard and all I can hope is that the outcome of whatever decisions I make about my life come out well.
I'll try to be brief with my recap. But, I shall warn you that it has been quite awhile since my last entry.
So, I've been engaged to this guy Robert since Valentines Day. I love him dearly. There are days when I don't think that love is enough in a relationship. There are many other things that are essential to a good healthy relationship. I found out that he didn't have the money to buy my ring and had to borrow, which is not a problem. Except that he hasn't had a steady job. I've supported him the entire time I've known him. He lied about going to work and now he's been fired from his job. His boss doesn't want to take his crap anymore. He's not dependable. So, I tell him to find another job. Months and months have gone by and still, no job. We've had arguments over it and he promises he will do something, but he never does.
A week ago we got into another argument about it. He then ignored me for a week. A week! I tried to work it out with him, but he was being immature. I couldn't take it anymore. Him using me, not working, I paying for everything and then I find on the computer's history folder that he registered to fling.com! A website similar to adult friend finder. I couldn't believe it. I've seen these type of websites from him before and he always says that he just looks at the porn. Whatever. You can visit porn sites, but I draw the line at adult friend finder sites. I packed up all my stuff and left.
I stayed that night a friends house and came back the next day to talk to my apartment manager to get my name off the lease, but she wouldn't do it because she KNEW that he couldn't afford rent on his own. So, I came back to the apartment to find him sleeping and I started to cry and tell him how I felt. I asked if he even cared that I left. He said he did, but he didn't come after me. So, I wasn't sure if I believed him or not.
to be cont...
8:12 p.m. - September 03, 2007
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