why do i torture myself? why do i continue to check up on him?
robert has another 18yr girlfriend and he's got tons of pics on his myspace. ick. *sigh* what did i ever see in that guy? i'm starting to think i just liked the attention. did i really love him? seeing him obviously have no problem moving on kinda hurts still. i'm slowly moving on. i dont think about him hardly at all anymore. there will be moments here and there where he pops into my head and i get sad about it.
i guess i hate the fact that i put myself in a position to be used. my self esteem is so low that i'm constantly telling myself i'm ugly and that no one would want me. when i get one smidge of attention, i act like a crack addict wanting some more. well, at least i realize what i do. hopefully i dont fall into the same trap.
hopefully, i'll find someone who will love me for me. for all my insecurities. someone who will think i'm the most beautiful person on the earth and isn't afraid to show it.
5:05 a.m. - July 02, 2008
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