i'm feeling down. i'm lonely. i'm sad. i feel extremely exhausted all the time. i dont want to dig deep and figure out the emotions. i just want to do nothing and curl up and die. why is life so hard and complicated for some people? why do i make it complicated? i wish i were the kind of person who was a "go getter" a type a personality person. but then again, that type of person just seems so fake. how could anyone really be like that? doesn't having the kind of feelings and thoughts i have make a person more real? more defined?
i dont know. maybe all i'm doing is making excuses. i could change. people change all the time, but i'm stuck. i stay where i am because its all i know. i only know how to be me, even if it is miserable.
can't i just love someone who in return loves me purely? i want a real true unconditional love and i want it forever.
people say that other people shouldn't complete you. that you should be complete already. but, is that really true? how could you be complete without love?
4:03 a.m. - July 10, 2008
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