ok. so i let things get outta hand monday night. phone sex with a 19 yr old was fun, but damn it was a bad idea. i keep thinking about all the things i'd really like to do. but, i shouldn't. not that i'm attractive enough to do it anyways. yay for insecurities. how would i live life without them? seriously.
i need to get a grip. leave my pre-bedtime activities to myself. no other parties need be involved.
masterbation is a solitary activity. i dont want to lose a good friend either. that's the main reason i need to stop thinking about it. damn i need a man. i was just about to say, "too bad i can't have one night stands." yep, really. i can't. i'm not wired that way.
i seriously need to rewire my thought processes. lol. i'm so fuckin perveted all the time. i wonder why that is? i have an idea.. but i'm not so sure it's the reason. heh. oh wells.
this is my mid year resolution.
1. stop being so perverted and nasty
2. stop being so emotional (could be my meds doing that)
3. stop eating oreos (my fav)
4. stop beating myself up all the time (not physically, sheesh)
5. try to follow thru on mid year resolutions
who wants to bet that i'll forget all about these by the end of the day?
1:41 p.m. - July 19, 2008
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