why couldn't he just leave things be? last night i was playing wow and i get this whisper saying, "i'm sorry i never responded to you. i thought that i should just leave because i was bringing you down." blah blah blah. something to that effect.
my heart seized. i started to shake when i realized robert just whispered me. i was shocked. why? why would he do this? he said alot of things that are now fuzzy to me. all i remember is that i got to ask him if he really loved me. he said he did otherwise he wouldn't have asked me to marry him. i then asked him that if he loved me so much, how could he hook up in less than a month when we had just spent two years together? he said that he didn't like being alone and at first it was a comfort thing and that he now cares for the girl he's with.
i just didn't know what to say. still shocked, i just couldn't talk about it anymore so i asked him stupid questions about wow. the entire conversation lasted like 5-10 minutes.
i just wish he hadn't made contact. he said the reasoning behind it was the accidental call his mother made to me.
sigh.
i didn't want to go to bed upset and i wanted to play literati with jonni, but he ditched me for arena. i just logged off and went to bed. he called, but i was already in the first phaze of sleeping so we didn't talk. doesn't he know how to be comforting or is that outside a guys scope? maybe i'm asking too much. in game, he just told me not to think about it. yeah. because everything is that simple.
it's been a long time since i felt sadness at this level. i hate robert for doing this. couldn't he just have continued to ignore me? he isn't worth all this worry. i fucking hate him.
4:45 a.m. - July 29, 2008
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