i kinda put this off.. i really didn't want to think about it. I felt sad earlier. like my heart had been broken. you know the feeling you get when you know you may never speak or hear from your friend ever again. i know this may sound lame, especially if you're on the outside looking in... Jonni told me he was bored with WoW and was going to quit. i felt my heart sink and i felt like our friendship was over. not because he's quitting, but because of what happens when you dont see someone everyday. you start to lose contact and i soo dont want that to happen between us. it felt like breaking up. lol. lame huh? but thats what it felt like. i actually cried for a good 5-10 minutes. i couldn't focus in game i wiped my party. i afk'd for a bit and just sat here and cried.
i told jonni everything. all my concerns and how i was sad and he logged off and i didn't know what to do. do i log off and just lay down and cry? what do i do? i thought that he was upset again because i was mad grinding towards level 80 and we had talked before about how he felt left out when i was grinding with mike. i tried to pay more attention, but jonni actually has a life outside of wow, he gets messaged online, he gets texts from people, he does stuff with his family, he logs onto several diff characters because he doesn't know what to play, he has school and i play all day long.
i know that i'm living the embarassing life right now, but i really feel that i should be able to enjoy it before i go back to my mundane life. i want to be selfish right now. i feel guilty, but i'm enjoying it right now.
i know i'm rambling. my sentences are incomplete and ragged, i just cant think about this. i dont want to. i was super happy when he called me today just like normal. i felt so much better talking to him. he doesn't think that we'll lose contact and i hope thats true. i dont want to lose his friendship. i treasure it and i'm willing to put more effort into it.
6:30 p.m. - November 22, 2008
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