me: not sure if your home or not cuz i think u said yesterday you had to talk to the aflac person not sure if it was today... but i dont want you to be upset cuz i cant handle the stress... i'm playing my mage...
mike: i wont play then. even easier for you.
me: why??
me: i just want to hve fun and i dont have the thick skin for tanking so i'm back on my mage. but wow is your game too so i'll just gquit and you wont have to see me anymore. sorry to have upset you. take care.
mike: you can keep your drama just shhhh bout it. i dont give a fuck.
me: why r u like that? i'm trying to be nice and you can just drop me so easily makes me even wonder if you even considered me a friend. you're upset cuz i xfrrd a char?? really?? because i tried to tell you my feelings got hurt and i didnt like it? you know.. i really did like you and i did have a stupid crush on you which is why i reacted the way i did when u got mad at me. and dont worry... i didnt tell anyone...
mike: i knew thats why. i'm not a fucking fool. go play on your other server i dont have the patience for this
me: listen i'd still like to be friends.. up to you
(checked facebook to see if he still listed me as a friend. he updated his comment and said something like: i have come to realize that women 99% of the time have down syndrome)
me: am i hopefully included in the 1% portion of those women who dont have down syndrome? lawl... plz dont be mad.. i'll xfr him back next month.
mike: lose this number. you bailed on everyone in the guild. at least you did it early rather than later. bye.
me: i left for you.. i'm not going to be like bigel.. i didnt want to ruin the game for you.. i thought it was what you wouldve wanted.. bye.. take care
** some side notes **
bigel = ex girlfriend he got into wow who is still in the guild even though he's asked her to leave and ask the GM who is friends with her to kick her, but wouldn't.
we also had long convo's in game.. pretty much called me a tool and that what i did was stupid. he put me on ignore in game. i logged off and went to the other server and its desolate. got jonni to come over on his druid.
i was in vent with jonni and i was playing my mage and he logged into the game. my heart kinda skipped but i knew he wouldnt talk to me and he didnt. he logged into vent. i was completely suprised especially since he said he didnt want to talk to me.
apparently he was drunk and wanted to talk and jonni msgd me on aim that he would leave so we could talk. he basically was saying that through our chats that i should have picked up on the fact that he didnt want me to leave and that he really couldnt talk cuz he was at work. i was baffled. i was like, are you kidding me? nothing in what you said gave me any indication you wanted me to stay. you pretty much acted like you didnt give a fuck and that you could care less and that i was pretty much easy to let go.
i dont remember everything word for word (side note: neighbors are listening to cher and it makes me happy. lawl)
he pretty much said he wanted me to come back, that we were a team and that he was harder on me because i was good and when i fucked up he called me on it and wanted me to get better. i told him that i am the kind of person that likes to hear positive things not just negative things all the time because it just makes me feel shitty. then he started to tell me that i let not just him down, but the guild too. he went on to say that now aaron has to grind for tanking gear when he put all his effort into dps gear and that the guild really needed me.
we kinda strayed off topic because he said his whole day was shitty and i asked him what was wrong and he said that the girl his friend set him up with told him afterwards that she was 17 and not 18 and that his dick was hers. sounded like blackmail to me, but he's not worried. he said she was horrible from the beginning. she couldnt kiss, she tasted like ciggarettes and she just layed there while having sex.
FYI - i'm totally insecure about my kissing. my first boyfriend didnt like kissing all the time and only wanted pecks. my second boyfriend was the same way. so i really haven't had the opportunity to perfect it.
**side note - my neighbors are now singing at the top of their lungs "i'm going dooooooown... i'm going doooooooown..." the song sounds familiar but i have no clue who it is. it is a good song imo**
he mentioned that he saw a tree out front but didnt know if he hit it or not and that he broke his kitchen table. his behavior... idk... destructive?
anyways. back to what happened. after him saying over and over again how he was disappointed and he wanted me back that he wasn't going to play until i came back because there's no point and we would see what happens when i come back. he said he was serious, etc. all i could do was sit there and say ok. then he logged off vent. i logged off wow and i just sat here. i didnt think i would hear from him. i wasnt even sure what to think.
but then... he called me.
he started up again on how he was disappointed, etc. i was like, mike, stop already. you arent even listening to what i'm saying or where i'm coming from. i told him that he woldnt understand and that he should get it, but he isn't getting it. he called me a nig for leaving him and stuff. he kept saying that we were a team and that he worked 11hrs a day, came home to play wow with me and go to bed so late that he would get a max of 3 hrs of sleep and that yes he got cranky and no it wasnt fair of him to take it out on me.
i swear to god we act like some kind of crazy couple, but like our relationship is in wow. lol. all i can do is just laugh. i dont even know what to fucking think. i got jonni to xfr his druid to demon soul and apparently my cousin doesn't need any tanks, but a hunter would be nice. wtf. idk. i dont fucking know.
i just wanna yell at the top of my lungs! right now, i need someone to tell me what to do cuz obviously i make a lot of wrong decisions. i dont like people being upset with me and i have this weird disfunction that makes me bend over backwards to please people, most often they dont deserve it.
anyways.. moving on.. we ended up having phone sex. wtf, right? *sigh* idk. he said that he had to get up at 4 and i told him that i would call him to help wake him up. thats 1am my time. doable. sometimes its hard for drunk ppl to wake the fuck up after only 2-3hrs of sleep.
WTF?!
9:58 p.m. - November 25, 2008
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