he can't promise me anything in the future. he respects me enough to not give me any false hopes.
i know all of this, YET, i am risking my feelings and my heart on hope. i tried to get some space from him and told that i needed it, yet after a day of no contact, i reached out to him. i told him that i missed him and he said he missed me too. we went back to talking/flirting as we normally did.
in a moment of weakness, or extreme want, call it what you will, i said that i would meet him. i've arranged to meet him tomorrow afternoon at 2:30. for sex.
this is probably the worst decision i could make, but i've made it.
i need to look back on this entry and remember that i know he has told me that he couldnt promise me anything.
i know, therefore, i am alone in the blame should i get hurt.
11:17 p.m. - January 11, 2009
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