weird turn of events tonight. i dont even know how it came about. i was playing wow, as i normally do, and i was on vent with my gm. ok, we never talk dirty, but we always joke around with innuendos. now, my gm is the LAST person i would have ever even considered to have phone sex with but it just happened. he and f* ended up drinking. i didn't. now i'm naturally perverted and i always talk about sex, but i never in a million years would have ever thought that my gm and i would have phone sex. he was drunk and asked if he could call. i thought to myself that it would lead to phone sex, but then i rationalized it by saying he's my gm, we've never even "talked" before. we always talked wow. always.
so, he calls drunk at around 1:30am and it is now 4:40am. he lives on the east coast, so really its 7:40 for him and he has work at noon. the conversation was pretty mundane at first, talking wow, school (hes 23), work, etc. then the alcohol starts to hit him more and i could hear it. he sounded sleepy. then it turned into asking each other honest questions. of course it turned into sex questions. after awhile he told me he liked to have people watch him get off and if i wanted to watch. of course i said yes, even though at this point i'm feeling really guilty because of my attraction to the teacher and i feel like i betrayed him even though he's still married. anyways, so i'm watching him. i cant believe it. my gm is masterbating on web cam. he told me he was discreet and wanted to keep this between us. he also told me that he liked to be fucked in the ass. awesome!
phone sex with him isn't as good as with mike because he tells me what to do and i love it and my gm happens to know mike irl. anyways, it was taking a long time because he was drunk. finally he came and we hung up immediately afterwards. all i can think about is that it wasn't that good, i hope things aren't akward and that i'm never going to do that again because i really like the teacher. i dont even know if there's a future there, but i dont know if i should wait or just live my life. i'll most likely still be alone, but at least i would not have waited for him. the military guy still texts me but i'm not that interested anymore. idk. life is weird. strange things tend to happen.
4:43 a.m. - January 03, 2009
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