why cant i have a better life or at least a better outlook on life.
it sucks to know that someone you care about thinks you're ugly. i've decided to delete my pictures off myspace and facebook. that should fix some of the problem. i only go out maybe twice a week anyways, so people don't have to see me in person.
i'm having trouble finding a job that i want to do. there are a ton of jobs here, just nothing i'm qualified for. i want to go back to school, but i'm scared of the financial cost.
i'm such a loser. i wish i could just stay in my room forever and not have to meet anyone ever.
dammit. jonni has put me in such a bad fucking mood. why should i cry over his opinion of me? maybe its because i care about what he thinks? i shouldn't though, right? i should only care about what i think, right? i can't help it though. when the "opinion" is coming from someone i care about, either friends or family, how could i not care?
so i'm ugly. i'm fat. i live with my parents. i have no job. i play wow everyday. i barely talk to my best friend carla because i play wow all day everyday. it's official. i'm a loser jerk.
its moments like this where i really wonder why i even exist. what is the point of me being alive?
9:20 a.m. - October 13, 2008
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