I've decided to have a garage sale. Get rid of some stuff I don't need or can't take with me. I think I've also decided to stay in Fresno for a couple of months and apply to colleges from there. I'll be applying to UNT, UC San Diego, San Diego State, and many many more.
All I know is that I WILL be spending Christmas in CA. If my boss at work won't give me the time off, then I'm quitting. I think I want to take 3 months off and just really concentrate on figuring out what I want to do with my life.
At the same time, I can travel! tee hee hee!! Go see juan carlos in san dog, check out china town in the city and maybe visit vegas again. Ooohh, I definitely want to go to pismo for some chowder in a bread bowl! The splash cafe rocks! Ooohh, and I'm definitely going to have a carne asada burrito on my way home from the airport! lol -- I might get fatter again! That would suck!
BUT, I'm definitely limiting myself to 3 months of "finding" myself. I'll have to try and sell the BMW, my bed, alot of shit that I've held onto in the hopes of having my own place.
I'm scared to tell everyone. Maybe this is just wishfull thinking. I don't know. It's hard to make a decision like this. If I get accepted to UNT, which I know I will. If I fly back, I won't have a car to drive or I could drive back with my 69 mustang. That would be difficult to say the least. It's a fucking gas hog! I can just imagine how expensive that would be. Maybe I could tow it.
I DON'T FUCKING KNOW WHAT TO REALLY DO!!!! AAARGGHHH!!
must think some more... will go to room and masterbate.
9:54 p.m. - 2003-11-23
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