Shane called today and we talked for almost an hour! I couldn't believe it. We caught up and talked about different things like my car, my xbox and Harley. During the conversation I was able to voice a few of my worries about our friendship. I asked him if after everything is said and done, meaning when I get my car back, the xbox and everything is paid for, will we still talk or be friends? He said that if he wasn't going to be friends with me that he would have dropped me after getting the lap top he wanted.
I told him that the reason I asked that is because I wasn't sure and that I can't just turn my feelings off for him. He said he couldn't either, he just can hide it better. I also asked him if we might have a chance in the future and he said he didn't know and that I should live day by day and see what happens in my life. I told him about how I'm trying to get my life together, although rather slowly, he said that he's trying to be more independent and I told him that that is what I'm trying to do for myself, too. It's harder and scary all at the same time.
I'll be stopping by his house this week to pick up my car and I asked him to give Harley a bath so that I can take a pic with him looking handsome because it'll probably be the last time I ever see that kitty. He was a gift to me from Shane for X-mas two years ago. I'll miss that little piece of shit. lol.
I wonder where my life will be in the next few months. We'll see.
10:18 p.m. - March 04, 2006
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